This past year has been a rapid growth phase for me and I have a feeling it has been for many others as well. I've described it to my loved ones as a birth experience: painful, arduous, waves of enormous feelings and experiences one after another. Yet profoundly healing and completely worth it. I have learned more this year than any other year of my life. The biggest lesson for me has been releasing fear and learning to truly trust the wisdom of the Universe (I'm still working on it).
Here are some of things I've discovered:
Perfectionism is a survival mechanism. If I am perfect and everyone loves me, then I am safe. And also limited to this one version of myself. And if everyone loves the 'perfect' version of you and you are hiding who you truly are inside, then whom do they actually love?
Perfectionism is also an avoidance strategy. If you wait until it's the 'perfect' time to -stand up for yourself, launch a business, break a bad habit, etc- you'll never do it because the timing will never feel perfect enough, and therefore you remain "safe" (and stuck).
Your body stores your memories. Releasing energy in the forms of yoga, chiropractic work and massage releases deep seated memories. Let. Them. Flow. Out.
Meditation is more powerful than I knew. And what comes up to the surface is what is ready to be released. My whale of worries was delighted to be set free and left me feeling so much lighter. I could stand up straight again with ease.
Rushing/hurrying is detrimental to my health. Slow. Down. Life is delicious this way.
I am worthy of love just as I am. Love doesn't depend on being productive or perfect. True love is unconditional. Husband, I love you.
Crying/howling is therapeutic. When my period cramps about knocked me out, I laid on my bed in pigeon pose and actually wailed. What came through my voice was more than just period cramp pain. It was stored old traumas that poured out of my cell walls. It felt liberating to let it out without needing to know the details of what it all was. Just set it free and try to release your old pain in whatever form it may take.
Being authentic is my favorite. The more honest I am with myself, the more vibrant the world becomes. It's like someone cranked the colors up. Instead of life looking rather muted, almost stagnant, yet feeling 'safe,' the revelation of allowing my true self to speak, be seen and loved has set me free.
Are you in the middle of a rapid growth phase as well? What have you discovered? I'd love to hear about your transformation and realizations. Isn't life so interesting?
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